I've got a road and it leads to decadence.

while everything's made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am
 
i love iris / the goo goo dolls
 
omg i'm eating pot brownies today lmfao
rebel right here

i haven't been on here in a year omg?
 
not bad for to long right
 
i don't wanna blog or talk about my life i have a therapist for that woops

really omfg my dad brought home chinese takeout for the family and i'm getting lunch at this amazing vietnamese place tomorrow with my friends and pedro and then i get to show him atl
 
and he's moving into my spanish class
and i have algebra last period
and i get to be the copy editor in newspaper omfg it's like proofreading but journalistically it's so much FUN I LOVE IT
and i got my letterman jacket today
i love EVerything
 
woooooooooo

UM REMEMBER THAT GUY THAT LIKES BLINK AND LOOKS LIKE CAMERON HURLEY
 
oh yeah um i was right we do have perfect chemistry and he adores me
not just my assumptions like he tells my friends about it etc
 
um anyway he asked me out the other day and i wanted to cry and everyone is jealous dear god i don't know how i scored him
but we're like everyone's otp i shit you not we both get that all the time already they all ship us more than cass and bethan ship jalex it's CRAzy
 
and the more i get to know him the more i adore him ugh EVERYTHing like i don't think anyone understands how much i appreciate him
i am going to be so attached to him really
 
all the small things (no pun intended i s2g it just fITS) like the way he loves music just as much as i do, and that it's the same taste and how he was going to play guitar for me today omfg i have a fetISH and he's so polite and respectful to EVERYONE no matter how much he dislikes them and how he's sO hyper all the time and he can't stand still long enough to give a hug more than a few seconds and he has gASKARTH EYEBROWS SDFEOIFJSDKLFJD ME GUSTA and he'll do absolutely anything for me without question and ugh idk all of it omg he's perfect
 
tomorrow we're going on a school trip together requiring like a three hour bus ride holLA and he hasn't heard of atl mayday or ymas so this is going to be so FUN and that's not even considering the fact that we could talk for hours about like anything wooooo
 
i think he's going to be exactly what i need
wait no he IS exactly what i need
he cares so much and nobody has ever done that for me before
 
and i'm 98% sure he's moving into my spanish class because he's fluent and tested out of the other ones but he's not testing out of the one i'm taking because he would just be moved over to my class ugh i LOVE THIS
 
i do not get how this even happened i'm just lonely and everything sucks and then BAM he comes and he's not like a senior or anything leaving in a few months we have three years
and i feel like this will be long term <3____<3
 
he's like really hot
but adorable at the same time ugh it's hard to pull that off well omfg why ME i'm so normal and he chooses me over all of the perfect prim and proper cliche girls idGI but i am so happy you have no idea i don't remember the last time i was this happy
 
everything is ok
everything is ok now
o
k
 
i'm so thankful ugh saofjeoiaf;jdskj
 

unimportant info 2k11 bragging about my life

ever since the permanent username change thing
and it probably helped that i haven't been on here in like a month lol
 
blog hollA
 
like two days ago a new guy came to band omg
he's a freshman and he's from argentina and hey looks like cameron hurley
 
if you don't know who that is look him up i have like never ending sexual frustration for him
 
but he's really tall and lanky
i like tall and lanky lol he's skinnier than me and that's kind of saying something since i'm a toothpick?
 
and guys he likes blink and fall out boy and boys like girls and he's really friendly ugh he's perfect
i need friendly people since i'm really shy and scared of everyone lol
 
we both have a mutual friend and i went swimming with her and some of the usual others and he came too and we just ended up having a lot of side conversations
 
and he hates dubstep lol i love him already i seriously can't find a single flaw i kid you not
 
and out of like everyone best friends included, all of the irrelevant comments i just like mumble for nobody to really listen to or pay attention to
he actually listens to them and asks for detail and pays ATTENTION
 
do you have any idea how much this means to me
no
 
and he's really non-judgemental ugh i can see myself being either really good friends with him or marrying him because we have like perfect chemistry
 
ok rambling over lol ily if you read this

i like mayday parade's fanbase
and you me at six's fanbase
 
do you know what they talk about
they talk about how perfect they are
 
they are perfect fanbases jesus
 

hey what's up did you miss me

just take a second to set things straight
 
hi
 
life sucks and then you die :-)

ha ha personal great
sorry i would put this on my blog but rl friends go through my fucking posts so that's not an option is it
 
everything ugh
i'm never going to be fucking pretty enough for anyone
everyone tells me that i look so much like my perfect homecoming queen cousin
except ya know all of the guys i talk to beg me to hook them up when of course i'm perfectly single
it's like she's the better version of me
the one that everyone wants while i'm stuck here left in the dust
 
and then my ex best friend of course
every fucking one compared us at every fucking thing
she's fucking gorgeous
she's incredibly smart and has perfect grades
she practiced hARD to beat me at the only thing i found confidence in
she was more likeable
she could do anything and everything i could better
EVERYTHING
 
sometimes people would contemplate who to date
and it would sometimes get between us two
they would ALWAYS pick her
 
i'm second best to fucking everything
 
i have such a shitty life
i spend all day every day locked up in my house and blog all day and listen to music
sometimes i'll text but it's rareish and i always start the conversations
 
i'll try and hang out with people
they always "can't" but then do something with someone else later
"ha"
i went to see a movie with someone recently at least yay
oh wait
it was my mom
"ha ha"
 
don't even get me started on a boyfriend
they last guy i was talking to everything kind of stopped like a month and a half ago
and he probably only wanted me for my virginity anyway
who knows
i might would've given it to him if it would've made me feel "loved" or "special" or "pretty"
 
i'm a fucking nobody who can't do anything right
sure i write for journalism
but that doesn't mean i'm special at it and i'm not going to get far in life off of it
 
and my grades are so average i'm never going to get anywhere
 
great
fucking fanTASTIC
 
dear god my thumb nails are sharp get them away before i do anything else
 
ha nobody read this fun time yay
 
i just want someone who cares about me
i just need a fucking HUG
is that too much to ask
 
and now i'm crying for no reason
it's not like anything matters
it's not important in the world
 
ugh i'll stop now
goodbye

but i like my new one idk
i might make it my tumblr url
which is jeremymckenyan.tumblr.com
follow me hi
 
but i have my username as a saved url
sux 4 u!!!!
 
lol i hoard them shamelessly
 

anyway time for some info that doesn't apply to you??
 
i slept in the other bedroom in the house last night
i've been irrationally afraid of it for like my whole life lol judge me
but idk i like it and i want to move in it because my room sucks
 
like i can't paint the walls because my parents put wallpaper on it like 20 years ago and can't get it off
but it's only like on half the walls idk it's dumb
and i can't put anything on my walls because they're shitty
and it's small
 
so yeah get some kfc you niggas
 
btw happy late birthday cam!!!!!!!!
hi

idk when i post some things on there i'll put links
 
polyvore is irrelevant in my life now and i only use it to pm people
 
so follow me here aw if you want to hear from me jeremymckenyan.tumblr.com
 
ik my blog is still slightly bland but i'm working on it so be a babe and tough it out thxxxxx
 

so there's this one really cool bedroom in my house that i really want to move into omg
 
it's got like blue carpet (which is fucking cool to me since my current is this weird green idk) and it has a big window and it's so much more spacious and i could actually paint the walls and it's away from my parents' room so i wouldn't constantly bother them
 
it's like PERfect omg
but i'm like terrified of it ugh
like ever since i was little i used to think vampires lived in the closet and now it just feels like something is watching me all the time and it just feels like
really heavy in there
 
so i'm going to spend the night in there tonight to see if i'll be able to take moving in there or s/t
 
wish me luck so i don't die lol or get possessed or demented
 
aw cute now bye ha ha
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
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